I have to smile to my pain.You all do not understand

Best case scenario:I love myself ; I enjoy living ; I smile because I’m happy not because I have to. I want to have someone who realize my pain even when I'm faking smile and saying I'm i have a smile,streched from ear to ear If I fall in love with you smile to want how to collect how to have. If I fall in love with you smile to want how to collect how to have. If I fall in love with you smile to want how to collect how to have. So I pertend to smile I have to smile to my pain.You all do not understand I learned to have the mask smile,even if I were unhappy. she would have little to smile about I face them with my false smile.Because I have to learn to hide my emotion.I i .want to make you happy because see you smile so i'm happy Everyday I put smile on my face to think that I'm a kid in safety. I'm force to disguise myself,I wear a smile in my life every day. I'm not kind or mature enough to show a friendly smile with someone I hate. I learned to have the mask smile,even if were unhappy.求翻译 I'd like to see your smile I only want to see your smile